Type 1 Diabetes requires constant monitoring, responsibility and vigilance.
blood sugar checks
checking carb counts
pump site changes
It is a BIG responsibility with BIG consequences …
Type 1 Diabetes needs to be respected – by Eden – by family – by friends – by teachers – by the public
Eden DOES NOT respect Type 1 Diabetes yet.
- She has not needed any additional hospital stays since her diagnosis.
- She has not needed the emergency glucagon.
- She has not been in DKA.
- She has no other related auto-immune diseases besides her hypothyroid
- She is fit, healthy and most often happy
Wants more freedom
Wants to not be different from her peers
Wants to not take the extra time required for her D management
She rushes to not stand out
She rushes so she is not late to class
She rushes and forgets to do what needs to be done – important things – that keep her safe
or worse – chooses not to do them
Type 1 Diabetes is a HUGE responsibility.
It takes vigilance and the need for understanding
Eden is 12 years old – very mature in some of the things she needs to deal with – but at the same time very laid back and carefree. A blessing and a curse.
She does NOT understand the gravity of what could happen.
She COULD understand it if she really, really wanted to.
But I just do not know if she is ready or more importantly, willing.
My internal battle as a mother is to decide exactly when she is ready for freedom.
It comes with a heavy emotional burden for me. Because things can go wrong and they can go wrong quickly.
As parents we need to make the decision for her as to whether she can do what needs to be done to keep herself safe.
Yesterday – she did NOT do the right thing.
She did not follow the guidelines/plan that we put in place.
She put her life in danger.
She almost gave her mother a heart attack
Things could have been bad. very, very, bad.
I had a meltdown last night and I hope that in some way I got through to her.. She scared me…. really scared me…
As much as I hate to say this – I think SHE needs to be scared. Maybe that is the only way she will truly understand the consequences of her actions..
Today – Eden has been given another chance to prove that she has what it takes to do what needs doing.
I WANT her to have the freedom she desires – but I’m not so sure I can give it to her yet.
I’m hopeful – But I think we might need a new plan…